Thursday, October 15, 2009

4 o'clock in the morning

4 o'clock in the morning

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4 o'clock in the morning

and the roosters are crowing

even here in the city

I find myself hoping

they raise them for eggs

and not for fighting


the little dog next door

is warm in the soft bed

I gave it

they keep it outdoors

with nothing soft to sleep upon

nevermind,

it can depend on me

to notice its dilemma

and bring it treats

and cuddle it

when no one is there


the feral cats are stirring

from their nighttime places

hoping for homes

that never come


where is St. Francis

when we need him?

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

SHAME AND BLAME

Shaming and blaming others is one of the most divisive and destructive games the ego can play. Inherent within this game is the belief that someone else is responsible for our misery, which, if it were true, would also mean that our happiness is dependent on someone else.

In The School of Being Happy Being You! we learn to let go of blaming others for our misfortunes, feelings, and unhappy experiences. We do not do this for others or because forgiveness is kind (although it is). We do it because it is essential to our own happiness.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Hunger

The silver light floating through
the frost on her window
reminds her of something pure and hopeful
like sun rising over the ocean or
whales singing beneath it

her baby's first morning cry
reminds her of her own heart
beating in rhythm to something new

she cradles the baby close
while the cat rubs against her legs, purring
insisting that it, too, be fed
and she is glad to feed them both,
glad she can alleviate at least
this much hunger in the world

she turns on the radio, skips over the news station,
and leaves it on something classical
while she pulls on a red sweater
to keep her warm and bright
against the cold light of day
which envelopes her as she steps outside
the baby is a very small burden, she thinks
as she places it in the car
looking back to see the cat staring at her,
with old woman eyes, from the window

the car radio blares about homelessness and hunger
about war and recession, about loss and corruption
"don't listen, baby," she says, "the world is not
really such a bad place." and turns it off

the silence that fills the car is comforting
like a blanket of snow over the city
and she luxuriates into it
she inhales the silence deep within her being
and lets it feed her empty soul

when she stops at a red light,
a man with gaunt eyes taps against her window
his sign says he is hungry
and she is reminded of her days in India
when she was a beggar, hungry for truth

she turns her face from the man
knowing that hunger is beating on the face of America now
hunger is beating on every door

the baby is making happy sounds in the back seat
oblivious to the hunger sweeping America
not just the hunger of the belly, which can be fed,
but the hunger of the spirit,
which grasping greedy men try to fill with more of everything
and never can.

Friday, April 17, 2009

A Coal Miner Story

Something as silent as a morning deserves my complete attention.
Somewhere a man with coal dust on his face is drinking hot coffee
from a silver thermos. His tin lunch bucket holds cheese and egg
sandwiches, which his young wife made for him while the baby
slept in its crib, still dreaming of a time before this

Somewhere
an old woman moves restlessly in her bed
wishing she could think of a reason to get up

Finally she places her gnarled feet upon the cold wood floor
she strokes the pillow where her husband used to lay his head,
until he was killed in the mines when they tumbled down

The wind whistles through the open window

letting in more cold and also the freshness of mountain air
awakening her to the freshness of a new morning
she pulls an old blue robe around her and pads barefoot
into the kitchen
where she makes scalding hot coffee
and feeds the cat, the greenness of its eyes startling her
as they do every morning

She drinks her coffee by the window
looking out at the mountains
humming little tunes between sips
and rocking herself in the chair her husband made
a bird sings somewhere in the silence
and then another and another

Morning is in full swing in the mountains,
she tells herself
and smiles
and thanks the good Lord
for another day to find out what it is to be
a woman living here in the mountains
in this body, this house, this way
she wraps the loneliness around her
and thanks it
for keeping her company.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

My heart Cries For Thee O God Of Love

The air is scented with night blooming jasmine
My heart is scented with longing
for Thee
I have no lover
other than God
the Elusive One
like the Gopis mesmerized
by the blue-faced Krishna
I am held in rhapsody
captured in desire
like Mirabai I am mad with longing
for my Lord
I am here, on my knees
a small still form beneath the moon
crying to God,
"Come, rescue me! I am forsaken
a mermaid without her ocean
a dove without her wings
a circle without a center
except for Thee, O God
Thou art my Center
Thou art the sweet scent of the Jasmine
I wish to disappear in Thee
before I die upon the earth
let my small will die
let me disappear in Thy love."

Friday, March 27, 2009

I AM

I am a writer
I write my life, I write your life
You are a lighthouse shining forth
You are a singer 
Crooning the songs of your heart
I honor your journey here in the shadows
I am a visionary
Envisioning you in all your glory
I am a reader
I read the colors of your soul
I know how lonely the journey can be
I am a seer
I see the shadows you hide behind.

The Long Blue Road

The long blue road stretched
into infinity
stars sparkled
the sun boiled
my feet blistered
my straw hat was lost
somewhere in the desert
the air grew so dry 
the paper I was writing on
crumbled to dust
I finished the picture I was painting,
propped it against the desert air,
and stepped into it,
one foot at a time
and began my journey
on the long blue road
into infinity.